At some point in all of our lives, we have lost someone very close to us. Whether this person was a best friend or a family member, it hurts just the same & sometimes the flesh doesn't deal well. As the process of healing is taking place, we need to know that it is OK to cry, mourn, be upset & a little confused. If we didn't take the time for these things the healing process could not take place within. God gave us emotions, & He intends for us to express them :)
4 yrs ago tomorrow, My sister Jennifer Michelle Pena went to be with Papa God. Under the circumstances that life had brought at that time, I didn't understand Why did God let this happen & I begin to fall apart. "I'm only 18, My dad is away for now & I have a 16yr old sister to look after. There is school, we don't have money, & now our sister is being taken away. WHY?" These were just a few thoughts that went through my head in the beginning & I wasn't exactly sure how I would get through this. It wasn't until I saw her lying there looking so peaceful & in no pain that I realized, " I'm Selfish!" She was never ours to keep, God blessed us with her presence & decided it was time for her to go home. All her life she was confined to so many things & unable to do what we all take advantage of doing. Walking, talking, eating real food, & drinking from a cup. So in that moment while I was admiring her little body & beautiful face, I realized her spirit was gone. She was merely but an angel in waiting for her wings to fly from this earth :0) Now she is doing everything that she was prohibited from & even more!
Your probably thinking, 4yrs? Shouldn't you have dealt with this by now? Truth is, sometimes it can take a whole lifetime to deal with things that have happened. Do I want to take a lifetime to heal from the loss of Jenni? The answer is No. I just want to be at peace. There are so many people out there hurting for this same reason & my hope is that, maybe when they read this, it will be a little factor in their healing process. "If you've experienced a significant loss or a profound disappointment, don't bottle up everything inside. Express your feelings;talk openly to loved ones;allow tears to flow. Even if you'd rather ignore your pain, don't do it. Reach out to the people you love & trust. By honestly expressing your grief, you will take an active role in God's plan for your recovery. And in time, you'll experience the comfort & the joy that can be yours-& that God wants you to know." ( Insert from my Hugs Bible for Women)
No matter how many years pass Jenni-flower, I will never forget you or the few memories we had. I know that you are now the angel in Heaven that we considered you on earth. Your presence is still with us & I know that you are a part of all we do. Save a place for me, I'll be home soon....
" To everything there is a season,a time for every purpose under Heaven...a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance." Ecclesiastes 3:1, 4
God is good Today, Tomorrow, & Forver
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